Annyeong, my one sided love

This is about my 8 years one sided love. 

I never had one sided love this long before. I never know that I will keep my feeling this long. I tried hard to see another man but it didn't work out. Until now I'm still unsure about my feeling. Am I in love or just obsessed ???

My friends said before that I'm stupid that I still like the person that go out with my trusted friend and also always think of me as just a friend. I also know that I'm stupid. From along time ago when he dated my friend I always trying to give up and try to move on but it was the hard thing I ever done.

I tried to move on for him but I just made my final project delayed and I just stay at home for some months. I can't even meet my friends because I am afraid they will know that I messed up my life. 

For not looking so depressed I turn my self to korean freak and make my parents blamed my korean freaks that causes my messed live. I know I'm a korean freak but I'm not that blind with korean fever. When I watch korean drama, variety show, talk show, or other program I usually thinking about what have I done with my family and my friends are wrong but I can't see them to see my sadness. 

But now, I hear a news personally from him that he will getting married. I know from my friend that the girl is from different religion but I hope he will live happily and lovely. I sincerely congratulate them and I think I should, must, really forget him forever. I should move on even I can't. 

This is the end of my 8 years one sided love. Now, it's really end. 
Annyeong...